DayDreaming

As quoted by someone “Dreams are like stars…you may never touch them, but if you follow them they will lead you to your destiny.”
Before coming to DA-IICT, I used to do day-dreaming a lot.As quoted by some psychologist “Most teenagers respond to stressful events by doing something relaxing like daydreaming“. Hey, no this was not the case with me. What does a teenager day-dreams about? No idea.Ok let me recall what i dreamed about as a kid and a teenager.

As a kid, I used to imagine myself as a owner of the Bakery shop with no one stopping me from eating pastries, ice-creams,cakes etc of my shop.Then when my taste buds started loving the ‘paani-puris’ of ‘panipuriwala’(I really miss them) at my alma mater, i imagined myself to be the ‘panipuriwala’. No I was not a fat kid always eating and doing nothing.Infact i was the thinnest one among my friends and my parents used to worry a lot about my health.

As i grew and came into 7th grade and when our history teacher taught us about the Indian Independence Movement, I was so much impressed by some of the brave deeds of the ‘krantikaries’ that i imagined myself to be like one of them. Yup it seems to be funny. As you grow old u hear questions popping up by the relatives, neighbors -”What do u want to become when you are a grown-up?”.I wanted to enter the Indian Navy or Air Force.why not Indian Army? “Because I don’t like the colour of their uniform”.That was what I used to answer. But I think that was my first dream that is still kindling in my heart. As time passed, my replies changed from IAS to IFS(Indian Foreign Service and then also to Indian Forest Service) and then finally to do become a scientist or researcher. Some people suggested that for that I should first do B.Tech. Infact not B.Tech, but I should aim to go into IIT. Even after staring preparation for IIT, I didn’t know about B.Tech. I just related Engineering to IIT.

During this period, my mind and my heart was overflowing with thoughts and plans of doing something great for my country - all those things that we can think of doing - eradicating poverty, unemployment,illitercay, corruption and make India a better place and prosperous country.Noone will believe that I really saw in my dreams these imaginations of mine coming true.

And finally when I entered the world of da-iict, I found myself LOST in the crowd of 240.But here these dreams have stopped coming. At night when i go to bed, in no time I am in deep sleep. Why I don’t dream here? Is that so that when you have not entered into the real world(By real world I mean, not just confined only to your family and few friends around you but apart from that ) , you start making your own world. And when you have had a rendezvous with the reality, you stop dreaming and you realise that the dreams are not reality? But Contradictory to this we have heard great people saying that “Nothing is as real as a dream.”

My First Blog

Its correctly quoted that “Writing is a powerful tool”. Through writing we can make sense out of confusion, give words to the feelings so often held inside , whether they be of joy, pain or suffering. Whenever there is a conflict between your thoughts and your actions and just let the words flow and all those things in your mind come as words. I am not a good writer but still I think I should start writing as this could help me in improving myself, my behaviour, my thinking and my nature and help me in deciding whats wrong and whats right by pouring out my feelings, thoughts and my opinions through words . Actually I am a little confused(not much), very possessive in nature, and i think i am too demanding in my expectations (whether right or wrong has to be decided) of some special ones around me and this leads sometimes to some bad consequences like hurting them and making them unhappy. I really don’t want to do that but it just happens. Today its again one of those days when I have made the same mistake and its high time now that I should do something.